Tonight or tomorrow Morning!

Tomorrow is my scheduled induction. I am not quite past my due date, but after talking everything over with my doctor, we decided it would be a good idea to schedule it if I hadn't had Frankie naturally by this time. First of all, I am quite a ways away from the hospital this time, and my labors progress very quickly--I didn't want to imagine being on the tollway in labor with John, who gets easily frustrated (and frustrating lol) when I happen to be in pain...but the other issue was that with Lucas, I came in so late without any medicine, and without my doctor. I ended up with some random doctor that they woke up at 4 am. He was grouchy and had no empathy for me, a terrified first time mom without an epidural who arrived at the hospital too late. He yelled at me for "pushing the wrong way", so I pushed so hard I tore and "popped" literally when Lucas' big head came out. I don't even believe that doctor sewed everything up correctly..

 A year later, having Olivia, I got to the hospital (new hospital, new doctor) at 7 cm again, and barely got the epidural. I pushed Olivia and her small head out with ease. But Lucas had done so much damage that I was never the same. I went to an obgyn in Houston last year about some issues I had, and she found that I have a significant amount of scar tissue on my inside to the right. It even affects John..I was in talks with her about injections to relax the muscle and repair it, but never ended up going back and we moved etc...it didn't pass my mind again til about a month ago when I started thinking about having Frankie naturally. I decided to ask my current OBGYN about the scar tissue; if the scar tissue prevents me from being able to stretch during sex, won't it be even worse during labor when it has to stretch the most!? The doctor agreed that that is a concern, and convinced me that getting an epidural and letting him "fix" what he can after the birth is the best idea. The thought really worried me that I might tear even worse and do irreparable damage that may leave me incontinent, or worse, that it would harm Frankie or keep him from progressing and depriving him of oxygen etc... SO, those are the reasons (on top of being sore, tired, and it being convenient for everyone's schedules here) I am being induced tomorrow morning.

 Today I actually saw my mucus plug (such a gross term...for something very useful) and I have some cramping and braxton hicks (which are contractions that tighten my whole uterus but typically aren't real painful like labor contractions). Who knows if anything might happen in the next 8 hrs, but if not, I will be induced somehow in the morning. I am not sure which method we will do first, but I hope it all goes smoothly and safely and that Frankie is a good sleeper like his older brother!

Tonight it was pretty chilly so we put on the fireplace, and did some puzzles. I hope I won't be gone too long because I know i'll miss my L & O :) Thanks to everyone for your prayers and thoughts! We are ready to officially become a party of 5!

Here are some cute pictures--Susan bought some new clothes for Lucas and Olivia from her work. They liked them (and needed them!)

Here's Olivia in her new workout clothes Susan got her; they match Susan's workout clothes. Olivia was excited and looked so cute in them.

And this was from a few days ago before we did school one day. Hope I can keep up with school with a new baby :)

Gonna go re-pack my hospital bag and then try to get some sleep. I'll be posting pictures of Frankie and comparing them to L & O's newborn pics soon enough! Stay tuned..