Update

Well, I am feeling alright today; no heartburn and very little nausea. Only slept til 2am, and napped intermittently today. My appetite is back, and Susan and John both went back to work today so things went back to normal a little and I did some much needed cleaning.

My sister Sarah is flying out from CA for my baby shower this week and the house just never can be kept clean enough with these darn dogs. I know I am just on edge because of my apprehension and lack of sleep. I washed the dishes today and cleaned the counters, took out the trash which smelled horrible from some thrown out brussel sprouts. Did some laundry. I am going to wash the master bathroom, but I need John to give the dogs baths first so I can unclog the drain of their hair before washing the tub. I love the dogs (at least my dog, Shmoopy :) but I just have no patience for them right now, and not having a fence in the back makes it a little more difficult.

It's rainy but humid today. Norman is over playing the guitar- he's bored. I keep offering him chores to entertain himself with lol. The sharp pains in my lower right abdomen are making me nervous that the real pain will soon commence. This anticipation of pain makes it worse I suppose, so I would like to just get through it.

It's 4:00pm and John and Susan are both on their way home. Thanks for all your guys' thoughts and prayers-- I really do have a lot of faith in prayer. Pain is a very humbling experience and it will make me even more grateful to get through this and have the reward of being a mommy. And yet, I am really scared of the pain. I would like to think I could just endure it and pray for strength to get through it, but I know if the pain is anything close to a miscarriage, I will be praying for God to just take the pain away. It's difficult because if I weren't pregnant, I would take and do anything to get rid of the pain. But I have Lucas to be responsible for and so I have to make very cautious and smart decisions. I know this is all obvious to you, but it's obviously all I have been thinking about the past few surreal days.

Thanks for reading and thinking of me- I appreciate the concern! I also wanted to thank Sarah for the gift I received yesterday...unfortunately, it was the big one that couldn't be gift-wrapped (she graciously bought a bunch of online only stuff from my baby registry, AND she is flying out here- which would've been enough!) but John and I greatly appreciate it and will act surprised for that one at the shower lol. It made us really excited to see how big it actually is- wish we could put it together now! But it would only make January 18th, seem so much farther away!