I am so exhausted. I never really did get to sleep more than an hour consecutively today since our ER visit. It's midnight now and I can't sleep. I have had terrible heartburn (the worst I ever had) off and on for the past 6 hours, and it's exacerbated by laying down. Now I am having horrid painful diarrhea that is literally just liquid. I wasn't really able to eat today except for a few peices of pear, and some brussel sprouts. I can't stop this nervous shaking of my head that started last night. So I came down here to read up on hydronephrosis and kidney stones. I AM TERRIFIED OF THE PAIN THAT IS MOST-LIKELY YET TO COME. I really need your guys' prayers to get through this. If any of you talked to me when I first found out I was pregnant back in May, you may remember my complaining of a deep paralyzing pain in my lower right back. This was around when I was 4 weeks pregnant, so I know it wasn't normal pregnancy back pain. I had had a bad cold and it was so painful when I would sneeze or cough. No matter who tried to massage it, it was too deep and internal a pain to reach or alleviate. I called my primary doctor to get it figured out, and the day of the appt 10 min before I was about to leave his receptionist called and told me , he "doesn't feel comfortable dealing with a pregnant woman- go to your OBGYN." Great. Yeah, it's my gynecologist's job to deal with non-pregnancy related intense back pain. And judging from numerous past interactions with this doctor, I could tell he just wanted to get out early and go home. Especially since my insurance doesn't require a co-pay. He wouldn't even prescribe me a pregnancy blood test when I first found out I was pregnant; I needed to know that my progesterone levels were normal...which I didn't get to find out until a visit to the emergency room, from spotting, during which they found that yes, my progesterone levels WERE in fact, low. So my point is that I have little doubt that my lower right back pain from 6 months ago, was directly related to my kidney. It's so frustrating that webmd.com serves more of a purpose than most doctors. Which is also why I am terrified.
My mom, everyone else, and everything I read keeps on emphasizing that the pain of kidney stones is worse than childbirth. I don't really know what to do...there is no way to determine the size of the stone, and how far along it is in the process of being passed, since they don't (or rarely) do CAT scans on pregnant women. But if it's caused hydronephrosis, which is:

Hydronephrosis is distention and dilation of the renal pelvis and calyces, usually caused by obstruction of the free flow of urine from the kidney, leading to progressive atrophy of the kidney.

Meaning if I already have hydronephrosis (unilaterally-only one kidney) then the blockage has already occured, and all I can do is wait for the pressure of backed up urine to push the stone into my ureter, which is tinier than tiny. That's the painful part- the long travel through the ureter from my kidney to my bladder, and finally out my urethra. Now I am having a wincing sharp pain that comes and goes starting right under my ribcage, radiating down my abdomen. And I am so scared that even after this ordeal, there is NO way to prevent further stones from developing in this pregnancy.
I am so scared of the pain and there is nothing anyone here can do to relieve it. I am worried it will affect Lucas. I am worried that the doctors didn't find everything that is or could be wrong. I gotta get to drinking more water and try to sleep sitting up, but there's no one up here and I needed to vent. I think I will have to take a vicodin tonight and I don't know if I will ever want to get pregnant again.