Every baby is truly different. And every time there is something new to worry about that you've never heard of. Having #5, i'd like to think I have things down pat and am ready for anything, but it has been a humbling experience and while I am so grateful to be blessed with the life I have, the challenges only become more complex and affect everybody in my home. It's the not wanting to depend on others to fulfill my obligations that irks me. So I'm making a short list of my main goals to endeavor to keep balanced through the chaos of the rest of the year:
-continue consistently with homeschool
-get L & O out more (I feel they suffer most with all the bbs getting attention)
-potty train Frankie
-breastfeed Toni as long as possible
I realize I will need a lot of help from my family and Emily (she is family too!) and I appreciate all the help already. I'm getting to be more comfortable asking for help, especially because I know it can only be good for my kids to feel our family unit is truly working together in God's grace. And as anyone who got my xmas letter knows, we aim to build God's army!
Alright so excuse my incoherent blogging, as I'm totally in the crazy hazy painful lose-track-of-time post-partum-ness. I don't know how it is for other moms, but it's a weird time for me where you feel like a malfunctioning robot that is perpetually behind in its duties. You don't feel (or look...) yourself for a while. There is a lot of joy, thankfully, to balance the pain.
So, I'll be blogging when I can here and there, mostly because this is my digital scrapbook that I like to look back over and remember things I felt, said, did or saw. Since I'm not on other sites, and sometimes feel my memory is going, this blog is still important to me, and to the few family members and friends that occasionally check it :) It's therapeutic to tell your story, even if it's just to yourself. Will write about Toni's birth story soon! We are well :)
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